^me losing track of which Sherri gifs I've used in these confessionals
1. I didn't think I personally needed that immunity so it didn't make sense for me to use my coins on it. I wouldn't have been able to beat the final bid anyway lol even with me holding onto all of Matt's coins. I did buy another clue to try and work out where that idol is but I don't want to go spending things that aren't going to benefit me (and won't drain all my funds!) I have a feeling that they'll be more than immunities and idol clues up for grabs in the future so I'll be trying to save some up for that....if we can even win anymore challenges.
2. Damn one third already gone! I know I need to be careful moving forward if I want to get through another 8 boots but I'm just trying to be positioned as well as I can going into the merge. Last night was wiiiiiillllld. I said yesterday that I would love to see Jed leave soon but I really wasn't sure if we could make that happen...yet we did! Matt and I had already been discussing it so we just pushed it into that quick scrambling period and managed to make it work. I think the craziness of a short time to plan makes things easier to push because people just want to be with the numbers. I know Reynold and probably Steph both preferred to vote out Liz but this was the perfect time to take out Jed. I feel bad because he and Reynold were partners, but for me I just didn't trust Jed. I didn't know where he stood and I don't think he trusted me a whole lot either. That was the right move but it was messy.
The funniest part of that whole thing is that apparently Missy thinks she managed to mastermind Jed's boot from the other tribe lmao like she planted some seeds in Matt's head and then he made it happen. Lol. Like Matt and I had been discussing how we didn't trust Jed for days, even before Missy mentioned Jed to Matt. WE wanted this, we didn't give a shit about what Missy wants... like we openly make fun of her all the time so it's not like we've been actually taking her advice. This girl really is goddamn delusional if she thinks that she orchestrated that...we were the ones who pushed it forward, we got the votes together, we made that happen. Is she really big headed that she thinks she's running both tribes??? Normally I'm just happy to laugh at how crazy she is but that's just ridiculous lol and part of me hopes what I'm hearing about her thinking she did that isn't true. She better tread carefully though... Mama Sherri has her sights on her.
The OTHER part of this we need to manage is Liz and I really do feel bad about leaving her out of that vote. I mean, it almost could have been her dying last night so she was lucky to escape, but I still get feeling upset about leaving her out of it. I just didn't understand her relationship with Jed at all. I thought they were close and then not but then maybe close? I still don't know but she's saying they weren't that close...but also that she was trying to bring us together. She did admit that Jed felt uneasy about me so I think I was right to feel the same about him. Regardless, she was pissed as hell that she wasn't in on it so now I don't know how she truly feels. I really don't want her to go here but most of the group is after her head, especially after last night. She's got that idol which is great but like she probably expects to hold the majority anyway if Matt and I vote with her and Allie. My ideal situation is probably to somehow get Allie out first and then have Liz idol out Wardog the round after?? But damn that's messy and there's just no pleasing everyone. Working on that though.
The OTHER part of it is that I do feel much better with Wardog now since he seems so grateful we didn't vote for him there. He also showed me the idol clue (which I had already obviously) and that made me feel much better. I really do think there's a good group there because Steph is good with him and Reynold definitely prefers him to Liz too. I feel like Matt and I are stuck in the middle so we need to tread carefully here so we don't screw ourselves....now what was the question again?
Oh yeah...plans well I guess I'm just focusing on getting out this tribe alive first. Keeping as many people happy to have good allies at the merge. Then I'll reassess depending on who makes it there, but there's plenty of people I don't trust and I need to watch out for that.
3. Hmmm I don't really see myself as a big target right now. I've tried to play it a bit more lowkey in this tribal stage otherwise the big targets are usually looked at closely at the early merge. For the most part I do think Matt and I are equal in a lot of ways so maybe I'm hiding behind him sometimes. We've had similar positioning and gameplay but I think one thing that has set Matt apart is his partnership with Missy. As crazy as she has been and as much as we've laughed at her, she really has been helping him. For one thing, he gets a bunch of intel from the other tribe. Whether that intel is accurate or not is one thing, but she keeps him up to date. She's also managed to help his relationships over here, kind of hooking him and Wardog up as friends and allies. As a result, Wardog has got much closer to him. Wardog and I are getting closer too but Matt's been getting into alliances first, getting information first and is just generally one step ahead of me there. I gotta say I really do miss Steph because I would have liked to have something similar to help me there but I'm all on my lonesome.
I guess I just need to find my own ways to stand out from Matt so we're not lumped together or he's seen as a bigger threat or anything. Not that it's a terrible thing since yeah, the meat shield strategy can work. Maybe if people take a hit at us or our people they'll go after him over me, but I'm not 100% sure how people feel about us in general. I wouldn't want to take this strategy too long into the merge though. I'm ready to cut down some big 'shields' right away at the merge, and not keep hiding behind them before it's too late.
