Queen of blinking!
1. Well, Shamar definitely wasn't my first pick to go last night. It should have been Alexis since she's the clear threat and would probably beat any one of us. Of course she won immunity....and of course it came down to me vs her in the finals.

As soon as I saw those first brackets I had a feeling it would come down to that lol rip me I guess. I will win immunity one day....I know I have it in me! Anyway, once Alexis won that I think Shamar's fate was sealed. I would have wanted Michael out over him too but of course he had that immunity.
I would have liked to be at F6 with Shamar at the very least but I also just couldn't get a grasp of his game. Like at TC he went on about how he's a goat and we should be voting out the threats but that same day he refused to vote out Alexis lmao??? So I was like uhhhhhh what are you even talking about. I had no sense of his end goals and what his plans were so he was the next best option to go after the actual threats. It's actually worked out pretty well because focus will still be on Alexis/Mike over my three with Matt and Steph, so as long as Alexis doesn't go on some immunity run I feel pretty good about last night.
I do think I would have had a decent chance at beating them at the end but I can't dwell over that now. Now as jurors, I hope I have a chance at both of their votes. I think it'll depend on who I'm sitting with but like I did have a decent connection with Shamar. I know he really wants a fan to win too so if I'm at the end with like Matt and Steph or Matt and Jess, I feel like I could probably pick up his vote. As for Aurora, we were much less close, but I think under the right circumstances she would vote for me too.
2. Of course I'm thinking long term! You'd be silly not to at this point. I never try to get TOO ahead of myself but now it's gotten to the point where I'm really thinking about having a place at the end and who I want to sit next to. Firstly, we need to get Alexis and Mike out of here.

Alexis first if we can and then we can ditch Mike after. I think I may have a chance at beating Mike but I don't trust him at all so there's no point keeping him around long term. I really do think everyone will get together to vote off Alexis first so that should be easy. Things get a bit trickier because I feel Jess might want to take Steph out after that, but I'm going to make sure that it's Mike instead.
Now from THERE it gets super tricky because if that all goes to plan, I'll need to find my ideal F3. I'm still wanting to go with Matty 100% for both a loyalty and game standpoint. There's no way I'm going to underestimate him because he's a real smart guy but I think the perception has been that I've been the one calling the shots so I think I can play the angle of having more control than him at the end. The question then remains...who do we take to the end? I've been thinking about different scenarios and counting votes in my head and I still haven't really made up my mind.
Steph is the most obvious choice since we've been working together so long. I would really love to get our whole alliance to the end too, that would be amazing, but I need to think about what votes she could pick up. Jessica seems to think she's a threat and like yeah I can see that? Not as outwardly but she's played a solid game that's similar to me. I think she probably has a better chance at like Tai's vote or maybe Rocker, and just having a vet in the end in general is something I need to be careful about. My gut says that I should just go with Steph but I'm not certain on that.
On the other hand, Jessica and I have now made a F4 pact and she's strongly implying that a) Steph is a threat we need to take out and b) we could go to the end together and have a decent shot. Now, she does make a lot of decent points but I also think she might be just as much of a threat at Steph? At least in terms of jury votes, like I think if it was me, Matt and Jess at the end then Jess has a better chance of picking up votes like Rocker, Liz, Aurora and maybe some others. In my mind, Jess and Steph are pretty neck and neck in who might get what votes but I am considering this. Plus, if I do make it to F4 with Jess and she wins immunity, I still want her in my corner to vote with me. I feel bad because I am being a bit fake with her, but Sherri's gotta put on that sweet housewife vibe sometimes.
Finally....Hurricane Hope.

Once again, I don't want to underestimate anyone, but I feel I could argue against Hope's wild and paranoid gameplay and come across as a much calmer, much saner finalist. She's kind of been all over the place but I do think she has had a few decent relationships on the way. In some ways, I feel like I'd have a better shot against Hope than Steph/Jess but I also have a feeling she wouldn't want to go to the end with me? In which case I need to cut her earlier because I want the F4 to be set up so that no matter what happens, I go to the end. I don't want to end up there with Matt/Jess/Hope and then like Jess/Hope force a tie against me or something. She's a wildcard but I'm keeping her in play for now. Oh and side note, much less concerned about her vote stealer since we still got bigger fish to fry lol so I think I'm cool there.
The last thing to consider is that from those three ladies, should I vote them off, would they be a vote in the end for me? I don't know how upset or bitter any of them might be but I want to keep things up so that if they do get eliminated, they would still vote for me in the end. Always a tricky balance.
3. I mean it IS just about getting to the end and getting the most jury votes

but that definitely goes a lot deeper. You need to fight for it, all through the game and all through FTC. You really need to want it, to show some passion and a bit of raw emotion at times. You need to stay calm and focused and not let your guard down. You have to prove yourself constantly, to both yourself and to the jury. You really just need to prove, that without a doubt, you're the strongest player in the finals and that you are truly more deserving. It's a lot, it really is, but winning a game like this is also a lot. I'm ready for it.