Well here's hoping my FTC isn't as bad as Actual Sherri if I make it there!
I really am nervous though...so, so close to the end but I can't let my guard down yet.
1. Hmmmmmm that is actually a tough one and I think it differs depending on if you're a lurker or a player or whatnot. I think I started out as a bit of a porcupine thrown into an aquarium...is that an apt metaphor? Probably not but that's okay. What I mean is that in an ORG sense, this was totally different for me. I couldn't hide behind a schtick or a big character, just another face, but I still had to be me. I'm used to relying on stupid and funny schticks and bonding with people that way but now I needed to make people bond with.....well, me lol. Top that all off with this IM system and it really felt more like actual Survivor, quick and natural conversations. This whole first part was a total learning experience for me so I guess this part of my story was about finding myself and learning how to swim with these crazy fishes.
The next part of my story was about adapting, staying true to myself and finding the confidence to make my own path. I had wanted to stay a bit more UTR during the pre-merge but I was forced to flick the switch on our second swap tribe. All the drama with Jed and Liz and everything in those moments.....wow. I did not expect any of that but I was proud that I didn't fold or take the easy route and just go along with the flow. I also managed to find two idols which I still don't even believe lmao and even if they didn't amount to a whole lot, it still meant so much that I could get my hands on them. This little porcupine really grew fins, or something, and I was becoming a more comfortable and natural swimmer.
And now I'm here, in the endgame, and Sherri has just flourished like the stunning aquatic porcupine she is. I've made friends, enemies and all that's in between. I think I've played a real strong game too and no matter what happens, I'm so proud of the work that I've done here. As boring as it is, I really wanted to be a super well rounded player and winning that immunity last night certainly tied off a loose end as that was one of my goals here. Of course the TRUE loose end here is winning. There's been lots of threats through this merge but I think I've been able to push through, remove the competition, and make it to the end more confident and stronger than I was at the start of this game. This is always going to be one of my favourite orging experiences and I'm so happy with what I've achieved in a game that is so different than what I'm used to...so thank you
2. At this point, I really don't think there are any goats left. Everyone has a case at the end, everyone is a threat and no matter what happens, it's going to be a tough fight at the finish. With that being said, I would just love to finish this out with Matt and Steph as they have been my most loyal and closest friends throughout this game. I hope they do feel the same and strategically, maybe they'd prefer to cut me, but I think it would be an equal fight. As long as we can all stick together here and make sure those other two don't win the immunities, then we've got this.
On the other hand, both Jess and Mike have already approached me to try and get something going as well. I'm listening and hearing them out and taking everything in. I don't think I want to go with them but if I make the F4 with one of them and they win the immunity, I'd rather they be on my side than try to vote me out. I think I should be able to make it through this round okay but my biggest hurdle might be at F4 in which case I could see myself possibly facing a tiebreaker should Jess/Mike win immunity. I'll be ready and prepared for that and I'll be still fighting hard and not getting complacent with my position here.
3. Well she probably won't be voting for me now lmao but I do not regret that vote for a second. She was legitimately a crazy person, I swear. I did suspect she might actually have been telling us the truth last round but she was also telling so many lies and throwing people under the bus that it was impossible to truly know. I know you need to lie in this game but she just went way over the top with it and it was exhausting.
Like yesterday was probably my least favourite round just because of how tiresome she was lol and I've purposely been spending less time on the board today because of it.
Personally, it's better for my mental health that she's gone, but strategically I just did not trust having her around. I don't think she would have wanted to go to the end with me, and even if she did at some point, that girl changes her opinions on a whim. Mostly because of the tiniest things too so like...how am I meant to trust her as an ally? She also would have made today all the more confusing and chaotic I'm sure and I just don't need her paranoia rubbing off on people. She was clearly upset with me when she left but like....I don't care lol.
We'll see how she is by the time we get to FTC but I am ready to defend myself hard against whatever shit she has to throw at me.
4. Well, we're botox sisters of course!
