Stranded in Tuamotus

Random morning thought: how the hell did Michael know which dossier was mine? I tried to be so generic with my answers. He was so sure that it was mine, that he paid to ensure he got me. I just don’t see how he knew....

Remember in Tanz when people who were newer to orgs well hellbent on staying OG tribe strong? Yeah.... that makes me nervous. Us vets know how being flexible is needed but I can see the newbies wanting to try and stay together. And they currently outnumber us. Something to think about......

How old is Michael for his first org to be in 2002.....? I was 8 years old

So I wonder what the possibility is that Alexis and Michael are in fact playing me. I say that because I’m gullible, and I know that. I have this unrealistic expectation for people to be as loyal to me as I am to them. So that’s where my paranoia comes from. Because I’ll start thinking about how easy it would be to lie to me and my imagination runs wild. But on the other hand, you have to trust people in this game. So it’s like this internal debate I have with myself a couple times a day. I also think about if I offer anything to anyone.. Michael of coarse benefits from keeping me, but does anyone else? I’ve learned that if you don’t have a purpose, you’re disposable. So I guess I need to find out what my purpose is for each person, without seeming crazy, and go from there.

Thanks for coming to see a sneak peak inside the mind of Jessica

Soooooooo... I’m pretty sure that Shamar and me are the same person....

I can’t wait to use that to sweep him off his feet and add another number to my army.

Jessica wrote: ↑Wed Feb 10, 2021 5:31:09 pm Soooooooo... I’m pretty sure that Shamar and me are the same person....

I can’t wait to use that to sweep him off his feet and add another number to my army.

Dean wrote: ↑Wed Feb 10, 2021 6:37:15 pm

Jessica wrote: ↑Wed Feb 10, 2021 5:31:09 pm Soooooooo... I’m pretty sure that Shamar and me are the same person....

I can’t wait to use that to sweep him off his feet and add another number to my army.

No sir lol. This is strictly strategic.... you could learn a thing or two

Okay so I need to update you guys on the happenings of the last like hour.

So I'm like 90% sure that the idol has been found by someone other that myself, Michael, Aurora and Missy. I doubt that Hope or Alexis have it either. So that leave Rocker, Tai, and Shamar. If Tai has the idol, I can legit be in trouble. So I decided to play the dumb 'oh poor me' card and see what some others were thinking. It worked out pretty well. Michael hinted that he would like Missy but will be willing to go Rocker. Missy told me that she is ready to vote out Alexis. I know that Rocker wants Tai but will also take out Missy. So basically, I learned that I have options of names to work with for a split vote. Tai is obviously that main target but I can get a few of us to throw votes on Missy or Rocker.. hell, even Shamar is an option but I think I can use him. So here is how I see this next vote going down:

Jessica: Tai
Michael: Rocker/Missy
Alexis: Rocker/Missy
Hope: Tai
Aurora: Rocker/Missy
Missy: Tai
Rocker: Tai
Shamar: Tai
Tai: Jessica

So this would be best case scenario but it is very possible. As you can see, there are 5 votes for Tai and 3 votes for someone other than me. So even if 1 or 2 dont vote according to plan, it's not the end of the world. I'm trying to set myself up to be in a good spot without it seeming to be my idea.

Anyway, information is power in this game. So that's about where I'm at update wise. I actually hope we lose tonight.. like I'm not going to throw the challenge but maybe I won't try super hard. I'm torn on this idea... but there are so many pros to losing that it's an attractive thought.

I'm going home tonight lol... yep..

I'm going to throw up

Also, I hope yall are proud of me for learning how to whisper, BUT STILL FUCKING UP!

So that was fun, or something

Missy is gone, I wasn't a part of the vote but it's whatever. But after Missy told me about her interference with the Jed vote, I asked Alexis to tell Liz about it. Well I'm still not sure of all the details, but some how Missy blamed Alexis for over sharing information. I mean, she did but Missy blew it up. Then Alexis told Missy that it was me (hence my freak out). So Alexis is now pissed at me and I'm sure that Liz is as well. I was never going to vote for Alexis but now I'm having to do some hardcore damage control with her before what ever happens tomorrow, happens.

Aurora also thinks that I lied to her when I didn't. So like I guess it's just fuck Jessica night

All I tried to do was save Alexis and prevent her from being idoled out. I'm so frustrated. I think I'm just going to log off for the night and let everyone cool off.

........................... Did Shamar not see the whisper fuck up and not know that I voted for him??