[Jessica]

I’m tired of posting in the same episode. So here is where I will say any final words over the weekend.

[Jessica]

I think I have processed the events of last night and have calmed down a bit. I feel like I went so hard for so long that I don't know what to do now. I'm still upset about some of the mistakes I made throughout the game but I really did have fun. I wish so much that I could have made it to the end but I understand that I have no one to blame but myself. I had many opportunities to really take control of this game and I didn't do that.

I'm glad the lurkers and hosts thought I was entertaining.. This game brings out a very interesting side of me lol. Passion mixed with paranoia makes for chaotic Jessica. I don't know if I'll ever get to play again, if I do, I'm sure it will be down the road a bit. I need a break from the stress of these games.

Regardless of how I played, I'm still proud of reaching so many milestones and goals that I set before the season. You brought me back for a reason and I hope you don't regret that decision. It may no show but I really did work hard over the past few months to understand this game better and become a better player. Tanzania got me hooked but hopefully Tuamotus is where I was about to shine!

[Jessica]

As pretty as this color is, I’d like my yellow back

[Jessica]

This game has been so mentally and emotionally exhausting, especially this week. My first night out of the game, I’m probably going to bed at 9pm. I hope I sleep for 12 hours.

[Jessica]

I would absolutely love for Matt to get more votes than Michael! I still think Sherri wins but that would be hilarious! And when you read this after the season Michael, you 100% brought this on yourself

[Jessica]

I think I’m going to do my own fallen comrades this weekend. I may not be this casts favorite person but I genuinely enjoyed my time with them during this game.

[Jessica]

I’m really torn about Michael right now. I wasn’t going to ask him questions because he is not getting my vote. But everything he has said in the past 24 hours makes me feel like I was an idiot for ever having a relationship with him in this game. I would really like to know the honest truth. I don’t want to hate him but he’s making it very hard to feel otherwise.

[Jessica]

All this talk about villains makes me wonder.... does ruining 3 people’s games make me a villain I can’t seem to get over that...

[Jessica]

I’m fucking boiling right now. The audacity to write a fucking book in my thread when I specifically said I didn’t have a question and that he just needed to listen.

No sir. Fuck right the hell off. I explained to you multiple times why it took me awhile to trust you. You came on very strong and knew way too much about me. It made me uncomfortable and I felt like you were always hiding something. After while, I did open up to you but I will never give someone 100% trust in this game. You lied to me multiple times and lead me on for the final 8 rounds. Don’t ducking use my thread to try and make yourself look better. Your a manipulative little shit who I’m so excited to be done with after Tuesday.

Also, stop trying to be Dean. He may be an asshole but he’s a lovable asshole, your just a little bitch.

[Jessica]

I’m fucking boiling right now. The audacity to write a fucking book in my thread when I specifically said I didn’t have a question and that he just needed to listen.

No sir. Fuck right the hell off. I explained to you multiple times why it took me awhile to trust you. You came on very strong and knew way too much about me. It made me uncomfortable and I felt like you were always hiding something. After while, I did open up to you but I will never give someone 100% trust in this game. You lied to me multiple times and lead me on for the final 8 rounds. Don’t ducking use my thread to try and make yourself look better. Your a manipulative little shit who I’m so excited to be done with after Tuesday.

Also, stop trying to be Dean. He may be an asshole but he’s a lovable asshole, your just a little bitch.

Did I overreact in the moment? Possibly.. am I still annoyed that Michael did that? Yes.

I feel like him and I need to have a long talk when this is all over. I don’t like hating people. Though I wonder if it’s too late for amends.

[Jessica]

I really am enjoying ponderosa. These are great people and I’m happy I got to play along side them for a month. I’m also really excited for them to join the server! As crazy as this game was, I’m glad I played. The ending wasn’t exactly what I wanted but I’m certainly not going to complain about 4th, especially on a 24 person season. I’m sure when I read through things, it’s going to be a bit hurtful, but I probably also brought it on myself with how I played. I cant wait to listen to the podcasts though

[Jessica]

Poody told me in November that I was being considered for this season. I spent 3 months preparing and learning for this second chance. I remember being so excited to play Stranded again and obsessing over proving myself.

I'll admit that I didn't play the whole game the way I intended to. I like the majority of my premerge game but I just had a hard time when it came to the merge. It was difficult to figure out who I could trust and what decisions were best for me to move forward. The Michael drama also didn't help things. Don't get me wrong, I'm still very happy that I made 4th. That's a hell of a placement compared to 17th. And I'm sure many of you didn't expect me to make it that far, even if I was a pawn.

As I reflect on my game, I still don't have any regrets. I know the chances of winning this thing are very low. I had a blast playing and I know that you guys at least enjoyed watching. The title would be nice, but the entertainment is what we are really here for lol. I don't see where I would fit in to a future season, but I will always answer if you call for me. I love this game and I love this community. Unfortunately, you guys are stuck with me

[Jessica]

Reynold is an interesting human......