Stranded in Tuamotus

I’m tired of posting in the same episode. So here is where I will say any final words over the weekend.

I think I have processed the events of last night and have calmed down a bit. I feel like I went so hard for so long that I don't know what to do now. I'm still upset about some of the mistakes I made throughout the game but I really did have fun. I wish so much that I could have made it to the end but I understand that I have no one to blame but myself. I had many opportunities to really take control of this game and I didn't do that.

I'm glad the lurkers and hosts thought I was entertaining.. This game brings out a very interesting side of me lol. Passion mixed with paranoia makes for chaotic Jessica. I don't know if I'll ever get to play again, if I do, I'm sure it will be down the road a bit. I need a break from the stress of these games.

Regardless of how I played, I'm still proud of reaching so many milestones and goals that I set before the season. You brought me back for a reason and I hope you don't regret that decision. It may no show but I really did work hard over the past few months to understand this game better and become a better player. Tanzania got me hooked but hopefully Tuamotus is where I was about to shine!

As pretty as this color is, I’d like my yellow back

This game has been so mentally and emotionally exhausting, especially this week. My first night out of the game, I’m probably going to bed at 9pm. I hope I sleep for 12 hours.

I would absolutely love for Matt to get more votes than Michael! I still think Sherri wins but that would be hilarious! And when you read this after the season Michael, you 100% brought this on yourself

I think I’m going to do my own fallen comrades this weekend. I may not be this casts favorite person but I genuinely enjoyed my time with them during this game.

I’m really torn about Michael right now. I wasn’t going to ask him questions because he is not getting my vote. But everything he has said in the past 24 hours makes me feel like I was an idiot for ever having a relationship with him in this game. I would really like to know the honest truth. I don’t want to hate him but he’s making it very hard to feel otherwise.

All this talk about villains makes me wonder.... does ruining 3 people’s games make me a villain I can’t seem to get over that...

I’m fucking boiling right now. The audacity to write a fucking book in my thread when I specifically said I didn’t have a question and that he just needed to listen.

No sir. Fuck right the hell off. I explained to you multiple times why it took me awhile to trust you. You came on very strong and knew way too much about me. It made me uncomfortable and I felt like you were always hiding something. After while, I did open up to you but I will never give someone 100% trust in this game. You lied to me multiple times and lead me on for the final 8 rounds. Don’t ducking use my thread to try and make yourself look better. Your a manipulative little shit who I’m so excited to be done with after Tuesday.

Also, stop trying to be Dean. He may be an asshole but he’s a lovable asshole, your just a little bitch.

Jessica wrote: ↑Sat Feb 27, 2021 7:50:43 pm I’m fucking boiling right now. The audacity to write a fucking book in my thread when I specifically said I didn’t have a question and that he just needed to listen.

No sir. Fuck right the hell off. I explained to you multiple times why it took me awhile to trust you. You came on very strong and knew way too much about me. It made me uncomfortable and I felt like you were always hiding something. After while, I did open up to you but I will never give someone 100% trust in this game. You lied to me multiple times and lead me on for the final 8 rounds. Don’t ducking use my thread to try and make yourself look better. Your a manipulative little shit who I’m so excited to be done with after Tuesday.

Also, stop trying to be Dean. He may be an asshole but he’s a lovable asshole, your just a little bitch.

Did I overreact in the moment? Possibly.. am I still annoyed that Michael did that? Yes.

I feel like him and I need to have a long talk when this is all over. I don’t like hating people. Though I wonder if it’s too late for amends.

I really am enjoying ponderosa. These are great people and I’m happy I got to play along side them for a month. I’m also really excited for them to join the server! As crazy as this game was, I’m glad I played. The ending wasn’t exactly what I wanted but I’m certainly not going to complain about 4th, especially on a 24 person season. I’m sure when I read through things, it’s going to be a bit hurtful, but I probably also brought it on myself with how I played. I cant wait to listen to the podcasts though

Poody told me in November that I was being considered for this season. I spent 3 months preparing and learning for this second chance. I remember being so excited to play Stranded again and obsessing over proving myself.

I'll admit that I didn't play the whole game the way I intended to. I like the majority of my premerge game but I just had a hard time when it came to the merge. It was difficult to figure out who I could trust and what decisions were best for me to move forward. The Michael drama also didn't help things. Don't get me wrong, I'm still very happy that I made 4th. That's a hell of a placement compared to 17th. And I'm sure many of you didn't expect me to make it that far, even if I was a pawn.

As I reflect on my game, I still don't have any regrets. I know the chances of winning this thing are very low. I had a blast playing and I know that you guys at least enjoyed watching. The title would be nice, but the entertainment is what we are really here for lol. I don't see where I would fit in to a future season, but I will always answer if you call for me. I love this game and I love this community. Unfortunately, you guys are stuck with me

Reynold is an interesting human......