I also have some comments mainly regarding some of Matt’s answers to Alexis and Jessica. His comments are making me sound like I was just bullshitting everyone and faking being nice and manipulating the jury. Let’s clear that up. I’m not going to deny there weren’t times where I made some silly or sassy comments here and there. He’s using this neighbourhood thing we had if it’s this big gotcha moment which lol? I was having fun with him playing up being ‘Sherri the Housewife’ since I liked to cook so yeah, I said silly comments about bake sales and gardening and stuff. Then things like “omg I’m going to go braid Hope’s hair so she likes me’ and stupid things like that. I did look back on these moments as some fun I had with Matt and I never took anything either of us were saying as something actually rude or nasty. I don’t think anything Matt said to me during these moments were bad either but now suddenly it’s this awful thing I did? I’m just sad that Matt is trying to spin this into some terrible thing I was apart of. Like hello?? Are we really putting much stock into us talking about picking strawberries with people or opening a pretend jewellery store??
There were also moments, as I told Matt, where I said I felt I should act extra nice with people. I think a lot of people here are guilty of that and from a strategic view, I just wanted people to feel good with me and not come after me. However, these conversations were always based on a genuine connection and it’s not like I was paining myself to be nice to people. I also wasn’t just being nice to people if I knew they were going to be eliminated soon or anything like that. I wanted to talk to you all because a good cast makes a great season for me and if I was faking it all the time, that just wouldn’t be fun. If I’m honest, I think the only time I felt like I was really hamming it up was on Hope’s final day. Once again, that was strategy to keep her onside, and it’s something I’ve apologized for. Apart from that, I don’t feel like I was overly fake with anyone. Frankly, what really upsets me here is how Matt is trying to paint me in all this. Claiming that I was ‘grooming people’ is a pretty gross way to look at it and that really pisses me off. Not only is it such a poor choice of words, but any implication that I was deviously manipulating and using people in this game rather than befriending them and working with them is something that really bothers me. I try to play the game hard too but that’s not the kind of person I am, not the kind of game I play and I really didn’t appreciate those comments.
Now going back to what he was saying to Alexis, I think when it comes to her, especially, I felt we had some of the most genuine conversations from this entire game over some of those last few days. I think it was after one of the times she voted for me and I approached her and was just like okay, I know we’re not on the same path and we’re against each other here but it’s cool and we’re cool. We just ended up talking about being threats, laughing about being after each other and joking about having some rivalry for the lurkers. It wasn’t weird and it wasn’t awkward and it most definitely wasn’t fake or overly nice just for the hell of it. I honestly just didn’t want things to ever get weird between me and other people because that doesn’t make for as good of an experience.
I’m also not trying to be ‘righteous’ or anything here and I apologize if it comes off that way to anyone. I know Matt and Michael are both great people and not for a moment do I think that I’m some amazing hero because they’re getting more heat from the jury about their relationships. I just don’t want anyone getting the wrong idea and some of these comments really irked me. I’m definitely not Saint Sherri or anything but clearly there’s a reason the jury haven’t been coming after me as much and I think that’s because you saw how genuine I was in this game. I don’t consider myself a manipulative person in the slightest and it’s not like I was writing up these devilish confessionals about how I would just take advantage of everyone for my own game. I just don’t think these perceptions were accurate and I really felt the need to defend myself here.
Okay…just had to get that off my large chest